Hi wee man. Today we had our annual balloon release and we ent you a special balloon. I hope you caught it and are having fun playing with all the other angels.

I have met some new mummy's with angels this weekend and I know you have brought us all together. We all sent balloons and special messages today because we miss you all so so much. The holes you have left in our lives will never be filled.

Nite Nite wee man Xxx

Bailey, This is the day you should have started nursery. I took Courtney to school this morning and all the wee ones your age were all going to school. I wish so much I could have taken you out to buy your uniform and taken you to school today. I hope all the other mummies realise just how lucky they are.

We bought a cup for the school and called it the Bailey Marshall memorial cup Each year it will be given to a child who has a love for reading. We chose that because it was one of the few things we were able to do for you while you were sick. You seemed to relax when daddy read you the story of the little grey bear and we think you would have loved books and stories like Courtney and Ben do. We were very proud giving your cup, and it went to such a lovely little boy. We are so happy that in this small way you can be a part of the school for many years to come.

I may have missed out on all these milestones Bailey but you are in my heart...always! Love you and miss you so much. Xxx

Don't tell me I'll get over it

How could you possibly know?

Have you ever lost a child?

Ever had to let them go?

Don't tell me that's "it's for the best"

What an awful thing to say!

How can death be for the best?

When he was perfect in every way.

Every day, people look at me,

They have pity in their eyes.

A look of 'thank goodness it hasn't happened to me',

Their relief they can't disguise.

I slowly slink into the shadows,

Embrace the grief that's become my 'friend'.

I hold hands with pain and sorrow,

On my journey that has no end.

Some people only dream of Angels. I hold one in my heart.

I dropped a tear in the ocean. When they find it, I'll stop missing you.

A Mothers Anguish

You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go

How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see

You ask me how I'm holding up,
but do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.

Because I am so lonely,
you see, no one comes around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.

Everyone avoids me now,
Because they don't know what to say
They tell me I'll be there for you,
then turn and walk away

Kissed by an Angel

Although I could not stay long
My lips have kissed your heart
Remember that I love you still
Even though we had to part
One day we shall meet again
Where in your arms I’ll be
So remember I have kissed your heart
And I love you more than you can see