Hey everybody!! Haven't been on in a while but I thought I'd leave a little update. Well it's finally here!! I find out the sex of my beloved baby next Friday! My feelings have changed recently and I believe it's a boy. But it's hard to distinguish maternal instinct and preference. Things have been kinda rocky lately. At my last app. my doctor couldn't find the heartbeat. My eyes watered up but he quickly carried us away to an ultrasound and showed us our baby was fine and very active. That was the most relieving thing in the world to me n hubby. Well I was also told that my blood pressure is high. So I have to relax. But me and hubby argue daily now. It upsets me to think that I could hurt my self and my baby with my emotions. The most thing we argue about is my situation. I haven't gotten a job and the money we saved up we spent it all on a car. I don't know what to do, I don't have a job. I was going to go back to school but my blood pressure my mom (whose a nurse) said it would be better for me not to. My boyfriend doesn't seem to care and keeps arguing with me about it. So I'm gonna have to go back to school. And the situation with my "sperm donor" aka father is getting worse. I'm 5 months pregnant and I don't know when I'm going to tell him. My time is running short and I don't know what I'm going to do or where I'm going to go when he kicks me out! This sucks. No wonder my blood pressure is high. But to calm myself down. I get to see my baby in 8 days!! Well I'll leave an update then!

LiSE