Today we went to see Dr. Dirk for Tucker's one month check up.  It is so hard to believe that he has been here for an entire month.  I hope this is not an indicator of how fast time will continue to go - I can't bear it.

He weighs a whopping 11 pounds and .5 oz. (80th percentile), and is 24 inches long (off the charts)!!  Such a healthy, growing boy.  Maybe growing too fast???  Evidently right now he's eating the maximum # of ounces per day that he should be eating for the next MONTH.  Dr. Dirk advised putting some rice cereal in his bottle?!?  I couldn't believe it - he told us NOT to do that with Lana.  What made it even funnier was that just a week ago, my Mom told me that I should think about it, and I was horrified - "MOM!!  The doctors say never to do that."  She was so gracious, and just said, "Well, ask your doctor about it. It may help him feel more full."  So when he said that today (totally unprompted by me!), I almost fell out of my seat laughing.  God has such a sense of humor - I tell my Mom that the older I get, the smarter she gets.  I'm going to get some rice cereal tomorrow.  (FUN FACT: At Lana's one month check up, she weighed 10 pounds, 13 ounces, and was 23 inches long.)

On a more serious note, Dr. Dirk heard a heart murmur when he was listening to Tucker's heart today. He's sending us to a pediatric cardiologist at UNC. I know that these often resolve themselves on their own, and he is a thriving, happy little boy, but it destroys me to think about something being wrong with that precious little heart. I just well up with tears everytime I think about it. Really having to pra y through it tonight....this deal of trusting God totally with your children is easy when everything is okay...something like this really causes me to search deep.  In the face of my fears, I've spent some time reminding myself of WHO God is - LifeGiver, Trustworthy, Faithful, True, and Sustainer...He is so good, and can be trusted with all things.  Including the health of my children.  Praise Him for Colossians 1:17 - "He is before all things, and in Him, all things hold together."  Including my sweet baby boy's heart.

He is also sending us to Duke to see a dermatologist.  When Tucker was born, he had a small circular wound on the back of his head.  It looked like something caused by an electrode, except that they didn't monitor him by electrode.  Dr. Dirk has been watching it.  It healed over, scabbed up, and the scab fell off.  However, the wound is still there, and looks a little funny around the edges.  So we'll go have that checked out, too.

Just two of the reasons I love Dr. Dirk: he's thorough, and covers his bases; he can tell a mama that her baby has a heart murmur calmly, without being an alarmist.